Monday, August 20, 2012

Teacher Time

Today I had my first meeting as a real life teacher!  It got me so excited.  I have a nice sized dance room (with weird mirrors that only cover half of one wall), but it's still great.  I get my OWN huge office along with my own shower and my own bathroom.  So I can work-out in the fitness room after school, and then take a shower.  It really is the best.

My meetings today were alright.  Most of the stuff they were talking about doesn't apply to me because I'm a dance teacher and will not be the one who gives the students standardized testing.  So a lot of the time i was daydreaming of choreography and planning what I wanted in the performance in November.

I can't wait to meet my students, decorate my office a little bit and get this year started!!

Spiritual Post

In my last post, I titled it 'Being Engaged is the Worst.'  Well, I wasn't completely kidding.  So far it has been super hard on me.  I have never felt more temptation and fear from Satan that I have in my entire life.  (and not in the way you're probably thinking.)

Long before Kevin and I officially became engaged I knew it was the right thing to do.  I prayed, we prayed and I felt so good about it.  I felt the spirit, I felt happy, and I felt I was on my way to the happiest life.  A little while after we got engaged however, I began having these doubts.  I would pray and expect immediate answers and feel darkness and sorrow and confusion.  There have been many times where I have been lost and not knowing what I should be doing.  I have been having a hard time discerning the spirit of the Lord with Satan's power.  Tonight was one of the worst times.  I was trying to search for answers and not finding anything. I decided to get on my computer and go to  I typed two searches.  One was 'prayer' and one was 'satan'.  These are the first two talks I clicked on.

All at once my fear and doubt were gone and I felt the true and good spirit.  Absolutely everything I needed to hear was in these two talks.  Satan does not want families here on earth.  From now on I am going to take it as a compliment that he's trying so hard to destroy my future family; because it's going to be amazing.  As I go through the final month and a half through my engagement, I will be reading these talks more and more often.

Kevin has been so great.  He has never wavered and has been so supportive over my moments of temptation/doubt/fear.  I can't wait for October 5th to get here!

Friday, August 3, 2012

Being Engaged is the Worst

......Ok, it's not really, it's actually pretty great.  I've just been super stressed lately with wedding planning, thinking about starting to teach junior high, remodeling, wedding planning, trying to learn the cha cha and the waltz, wedding planning, freaking out about starting to teach junior high, and oh yes, wedding planning. However, I did get our engagements back which I love! It made me realize why I'm putting myself through this stress and that it will all be worth it.

In other, non-wedding news, our kitty Jax has started catching flies.  Our little bug catcher is growing up so nicely.